Since I was a little kid I never had a problem with expressing my
emotions. Whether it was crying, screaming, laughing, or expressing love
towards someone, I never really tried to contain myself. Not that I would
always throw a tantrum if something didn’t go my way, I mean I still was a
pretty well-behaved child, but I always made it clear to anyone around me why
and what exactly made me upset. The same goes for positive emotions and
feelings. Even when I was in kindergarten I didn’t have a problem with letting
the cutest guy in the group know that I liked him by drawing him a really odd
looking Valentine’s Day card that looked more like a horror movie scene. And
even if I was rejected, at least I tried! Now that I think about it, he was too
old for me anyway, I was 4 and he was almost 6. What were you thinking Anna?
The point that I’m trying to make is that I was always blunt with my feelings.
And as I got older, I realized that not everyone around me shared my beliefs of
emotional exposure. In our society, the less emotion you show, the better.
Unless you’re showing your body parts, cause that’s totally cool with everyone.
So I decided that maybe filtering myself is the right thing to do. But is it?
How can you contain something that is literally tearing you apart from within?
As I got even older, I tried to understand why our society works like that and
why is it more ok to show your boobs than your feelings. And the answer is
simple. It’s easier and it’s safer. By expressing your emotions you’re exposing
your soul, and once it’s exposed, you can’t cover it up with clothes. Recently
in my Public Speaking class, my professor brought up a great point of how the
biggest problem in our society is lack of communication. Think about how many
times you’ve gotten into a fight with someone because of misunderstanding or
misinterpretation of something you or someone else said? I know that I’ve had
cases when I fought with someone for hours just to come to a conclusion that
the both of us misunderstood each other’s intentions. So basically I’ve wasted
hours of my precious life on nothing. Literally nothing. But all of that
could’ve been avoided if we simply expressed our feelings in a proper way to
begin with. People like to beat around the bush and for some reason are afraid
to say things how they are. My
favorite stories are the ones when people love each other for like 20 years but
they’re too afraid to say it. So they end up pretending like everything’s cool
until they hit midlife crisis and realize everything in their lives could’ve
been different if they told that someone they loved them back then. So to
conclude this little entry, I have one thing to say. If you love someone, let
them know. Let them know in the most ridiculous, soul exposing way you can
possibly think of. Or if you have something to say to someone, say it now.
Because who knows what might happen tomorrow. Express your feeling and don’t be
afraid to expose your soul, because at the end, that will be all we have left.
A.Z
A.Z
